Brenda Meyer

Hi my name is Brenda Meyer and I come from a background of sexual, physical and emotional abuse starting at the age of 4. My whole life has been a mess, but what made it even worse was that to look at me on the outside you wouldn't have known it. Sound familiar to any of you? The outside package was held together pretty good and was functional, but the inside was full of hatred, anger, rage, jealousy, self-hatred, greed, low self-esteem, 20 years of being a functioning drunk, unforgiveness, self-focus, depression, constant state of neediness and wanting, suicidal thoughts, anxiety, self-pity, manipulation, phony hypocritical liar, lust, cigarette addiction, deadly fear of the dark, fear of people, a constant daily buzzing noise in my ears and tightness in my head, escapism into a fantasy world, loneliness, and constant internal turmoil. There wasn't a single area of my life that wasn't a mess - terrible marriage, terrible parent, in-debt and over-weight! It has only been through the teachings of The Weigh Down Ministry that I have for the first time in my life at the age of 46 years experienced the emotions of peace, joy, happiness and love - with an added benefit of 50+lbs of permanent weight lost. Gwen Shamblin has been pivotal in pointing me to God and showing me how to have a genuine, personal relationship with Him. I have also learned another invaluable Truth, that nothing that happened to me in my past is an excuse for staying in sin!!! My many attempts at solving my weight problem was to try every diet known to mankind: Jenny Craig, Weight Watchers, Tony Powers, grapefruit, Atkins, Fen/fen, Slim-fast, tuna, low-fat/no-fats, health food, all manner of herbal concoctions, diet of the month, exercise and so much more. Whatever the latest diet anyone else was trying or was on the current magazine rack. I guess you get the idea! Once again, for the emotional problems, I tried it all:  counseling, self-help books, seminars, western religion, suppression, climbing into an alcohol bottle and moving to a new state every two years. As a last resort, nine years ago for the first time in my life, I turned to Church/Religion. I got caught up in the Faith/Prosperity message which only taught me increased greed and lust for "more" and did nothing to identify any sin in my life or heart. I did use Jesus like a drug. I got high on Sundays but by Monday things were pretty much back to normal. After 5 years of calling myself a Christian, I was in worse shape!! Needless to say none of these methods worked! But in less than two years of applying the principles taught by Weigh Down, I'became a much better parent, my marriage is better, we're working on the debt and the majority of the emotional stuff is either gone or actively being laid down. Simply put - positive Change is occurring in my life daily. Because only "the truth will set you free" and "you'll know them by their fruit."  Please stop just enduring life and being overweight - learn how God wants you to live!!!! I beg you, don't let anything or anyone stop you! There is help and hope with The True God if you don't give up or quit. This is the Answer you have been searching for you've found it!!!! I pray in the Name of Jesus Christ that this testimony reaches and helps those who desperately need Salvation - like I did!