Suzanne Gentry

From the age of 17, I was obsessed with thinness and learned ways to keep my weight down without having to starve myself. I had so much greed for food that I knew I couldn't be a "successful anorexic", so bulimia was the eating disorder of choice for me. Over a few years I went from binging and vomiting, to taking massive amounts of laxatives (I even overdosed on them after taking 90 laxatives and almost died), to taking speed so that I wouldn't be hungry (and everything in between, including diet pills, diuretics, alcohol to numb out so I wouldn't feel hungry, and even w/ the alcohol, I would choose the highest proof alcohol so that I could consume the least amount of calories while still getting the best "buzz"), etc.. I knew from the start that all of this was wrong, so I pursued many different kinds of "therapy" and nothing worked. I was able to stop vomiting for periods of time, but I was still obsessed with food and with staying thin. I justified that working out for a few hours a day was a "righteous" and "healthy" way to keep my weight off. I developed sciatica and other bone/joint ailments from the abuse I put my body through w/ exercise. All of this was accompanied by depression, extreme anxiety, isolation, many ailments (due to malnutrition and abuse of the body), and I even tried different things for that (anti-depressants, anti-anxiety drugs, etc.).....

Then I found Weigh Down and realized that until I changed my HEART, I would never be free from this life-stealing eating disorder. Weigh Down has not only given me freedom from bulimia, but has replaced it w/ a love for God that I never had nor thought was even possible, even in all the years that I thought I was a Christian. I used think God was supposed to zap me w/ His magic wand and make me "well" (I believed this SIN was a "DISEASE"), so when He didn't, I was just angry at Him and basically felt hopeless and lost. Now I know that I must commit my mind, heart, soul and strength to Him every single day, and THEN He will show me the truth, and the truth will (AND DOES) set me free!!! Also, I LOVE to read the Bible now, and never did before Weigh Down. I can't imagine a single day without seeking God's will for my life, and I have found that life goes SO much better if I seek His will, not my own. He has blessed me in unbelievable ways (i.e., I have a wonderful new home, a great job that He has rewarded hugely, and a husband who treats me so well and with whom I can share my love for God). I would never want to go back to my life of misery--living for God is SO much better... AND SO much FUN!! I would love to share more with you if you are interested, so please feel free to contact me! Have a blessed day doing the will of God!